Thumbs down to bitches and hoes...

* Almost Done *

Tue, 02 May 2006 14:44:55 GMT

Things are starting to look up:

* only 10 more days until I get to go home for summer break!
* only 22 more days until I leave for the Bahamas!
* only 27 more days until Heather and Nichole get back from school!
* only 47 more days until my 20th birthday!

I love and miss my friends so much! We're going to have the best summer EVER!

Peace out!

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 19:17:50 GMT

*28 more days until I leave for the Bahamas!

*16 more days until I leave to go back home!

**so much crap to deal with until then but it will be worth it!

**this sumer will be the greatest summer of my life!!

peace.

leave the pieces

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 22:07:48 GMT

You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair
You know you just keep me hanging around
You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't wanna see my tears
So why are yous till standing here
Just watching me drown

And it's alright
Yeah, I'll be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just, take your love and hit the road
Cause nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

Now you can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
You can get it over with and let me move on
Don't concern yourself with this mess you left for me
I can clean it up you see
Just as long as your gone

You're not making up your mind
It's killin' me
You're wasting time
I need so much more then that

Leave the pieces when you go

* It's Stupid *

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 16:24:44 GMT

Why work so hard when nothing ever gets done?
Why play a game when you know they've already won?

Why give so much when all they do is take?
Why settle with the excuses you know are fake?

Why stay when you really want to go?
Why stay small when there's room to grow?

Why do you worrie when you shouldn't even care?
Why do you comprimise with something you know is not fair?

yeah so thats what I think...

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 13:25:37 GMT

Body:

Name: Caisley

Brothers: Richard

Sisters: none

Eye color: light brown

Shoe size: 7

Height: 5'3"

Innie or Outie: innie

What are you wearing right now? jeans and a polo

Where do you live? Brewer/Farmington

Righty or lefty: righty

Best place to go for a date: the beach

Favorites....

Number: 13

Boys Name: Landon

Girls Name: Lauren

Drink: water

Month: June, July, August

Juice: grape!

Breakfast: fruit

Have You Ever..

Smoked: no

Bungee jumped: No

Made yourself throw-up: no

Gone skinny dipping: yes

Loved someone so much it made you cry: umm, i have cried over a person I loved, yes...

Broken a bone: skull

Played Truth or Dare: yes

Been in a police car: no

Been on a plane: Yes

Came close to dying: haha plenty of times (my poor mother)

Been in a sauna: yes

Been in a hot tub: yes

Swam in the ocean: yes

Fallen asleep in school: once

Broken someone's heart: i think so

Cried when someone died: Yes

Cried in school: yes

Fell off your chair: a lot

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: yes

Saved AIM conversation: i dont think so

Saved e-mails: yes

Made out with just a friend: no

Been cheated on: yup

What is...

What's your room like: we're redoing it actually..

What is beside you: philosophy hw

What is the last thing you ate: banana

What kind of shampoo do you use: different kinds

Ever Had...

Chicken pox: yes

Sore throat: yes

Stitches: yes

Broken nose: yes

Do You...

Believe in love at first sight: yes

Like picnics: yes

Like school: nope

Questions:

Who was the last person you called: Mom

Who was the last person you danced with: Matthew

Who makes you smile: Matt, Nichole, Heather, Jo, Ricky and Kemo of course!

Who...

Did you last yell at: Matthew

Broke your heart: no one

Told you they loved you?: Matthew

Do you like filling these out?: ehh I'm bored

Do you wear contact lenses or glasses: nope

Do you like yourself: yes

Do you get along with your family: most of the time

Final Questions:

What are you listening to right now: Natasha Bedingfield

What did you do yesterday?: hw, worked out, watch movies with matt

Hated someone in your family?: nope

What car do you wish to have: I like mine just fine

Where do you want to get married: anywhere as long as i'm in love it shouldn't matter <-- I agree with mack dawg here!

Good singer: haha no, but matt seems to think so haha

Diamond or pearl: diamond

Are you oldest?: yes

Indoor or outdoor: outside!

Today did you...

1. Talk to someone you liked: yes

2. Buy something: no

3. Get sick: no

4. Sing: yes

8. Talked to an ex: no

9. Miss someone: I always miss my family and my girls!

Last person who....

10. Was in your bed?: me and Matt

11. Saw you cry: Matt

12. Made you cry: gahh

13. Went to the movies with: I'm going tonight!

14. You went to the mall with: Nichole, Heather, Jordan and BJ.

16. Ever been in a fight with your pet: haha yeah, Miss. Kitty won!

17. Been to California: no

18. Been to Mexico: no

19. Been to Canada: yes

20. Been to Africa: no

Random......

21. Do you have a crush on someone: no

22. What books are you reading now: a lot of school text..

23. Best feeling in the world: laying in the sand while laughing with your friends and listening to the waves!

24. Future KIDS names: Landon and Lauren

25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no

26. What's under your bed: storage bins and shoes

27. Favorite sport to watch: hockey

28. Favorite location?: Maine

29. Piercing/Tattoos: ears

30. What are you most scared of right now: that summer will never come

32. Who do you really hate? no one

33. Do you have a job?: yes

35.Have you ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with?: yes

37. Are you lonely right now: no

38. Song that's stuck in your head right now: Unwritten

39. Have you ever played strip poker: yes

40. Have you ever gotten beat up: no

43. Have you ever been in a mosh-pit: yes

44. Ever liked someone but thought they'd never notice you? yes

Random

What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes, smile, personality.

Your Favorite Food?: mexican

Have you ever cried for no reason?: yes

Are you too shy to ask someone out?: yeah

Hugs or kisses?: both

Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?: don't matter

Favorite Flower?: sun flowers! - I like all flowers

Have you ever fired a gun?: yes

Do you like to travel by plane as opposed to car?: yeah, plane is way faster

How many pillows do you sleep with?: 1

Who are you missing right now?: family and friends

Do you think your ex misses you?: nah

* yeah I'm bored *

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 16:31:00 GMT

1. Spell your middle name backwards:
nna

2. Story behind your first name:
It's scottish, it was my great grandmothers

3. When's your birthday:
June 17th (i'm going to be 20! yeay!)

4. Where do you live:
Brewer/Farmington

DESCRIBE YOUR:

5. Wallet:
black?

6. Eyes:
brown

7. Toothbrush:
pink

8. Jewelry worn daily:
I mix it up a lot

9. Cell phone:
pink, flip, strong

10. Pillow cover right now:
TMNT, heck yes!

11. Car:
1987 firebird trans am, gloss black, t tops, cd player (aka: love of my life)

12. Bedroom:
posters everywhere, tons of pictures ninja turtle bed spred, yup..

13. Where is thirteen?
between twelve and fourteen

14. Shampoo: herbal essences and thermasilk they smell nice...

15. Cologne or perfume:
Perfume: curious

16. CD in stereo right now:
Taking Back Sunday !

17. Piercings:
1 in each ear

18. What you are wearing now:
my ripped 80's jeans and senses fail short sleeve shirt

19. Wishing:
I could work

20. Wanting:
money

21. What are you doing after this:
going to class

22. If you could get away with it and murder anyone who would it be:
well... haha jk guys, i couldn't do it

23. Person and/or people you wish you could see right now:
Nichole, Heather, Jordan, Kemo, Rick, and my fam in NY

24. Some of your favorite movies:
Fight Club, The Notebook, Miss. Congeniality, Bad Boys, Pirates of the Caribbean, Ice Age, The boondock saints, the little mermaid, brokeback mountain, a history of violence, mall rats, dumb and dumber, Anchorman, troy, without a paddle, the dukes of hazzard, 10 things I hate about you, whatever it takes, Donnie Darko, how to lose a guy in 10 days, out cold, grind, harold and Kumar, the breakfast club, 16 candles, pretty in pink, clueless, monster in law, never been kissed, elf, and the sisterhood of the traveling pants. Yeah I like movies...so what?

25. Some things you are looking forward to in the coming week:
tonight is dollar night at the local theater...an I get to go out with Nicky thursday!

26. Something you just ate:
crackers

27. Something you are deathly afraid of:
spiders and being lost

28. Do you like candles:
yes!

29. Do you like incense:
sure

30. Do you like the taste of blood:
eww...no

31. Do you believe in love:
yes

32. Do you believe in love at first sight:
gahh...not sure about that one yet

33. This isn't a question:
I like the beach

34. Do you believe in Heaven:
not sure

35. Do you believe in God:
not sure

36. Do you have a tattoo:
not yet

37. What do you want to eat right ow?
nothing

38. Are you addicted to MySpace?:
not really

39. Can you eat with chopsticks:
ha..no

40. What's your favorite coin:
um dimes are cool i guess

41. What are some of your favorite candies:
Skittles, M & M's, starbursts, and sourpatch kids!

42. Favorite Coke:
yuck soda is gross

43. What's something you wish you could understand better:
the meaning of life

44. If you could turn back time, what would you change:
not sure but I think I would stop in the 80's and go to a guns and roses concert haha

45. If given a million dollars what's one thing you would buy:
a house

46. Can you cook:
yessah

47. Are you shy around your crush:
i probably would be if i had a crush

48. Name the people you are going to see next:
Matthew

49. Your best friends:
Nichole, Jordan, and Heather of course!

* 55 more days of school left *

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 15:40:57 GMT

*big test in child and adolescent development

*Heather is coming to visit me!

*bob marley nest week

*tons of work

I want to get my hair cut...

yup.

* Yippy *

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 13:42:40 GMT

Today is Matthew's birthday!

Tonight is the taste of chaos!

Yippy!

* READ! So Long Astoria *

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 15:38:21 GMT

This is about "The Goonies" ( the town where the goonies live is called "Astoria" ) -don't believe me? Watch it!

It was the first snow of the season
i can almost see you breathin
in the middle of that empty street

Sometimes i still see myself
in that lonesome bedroom
playin my guitar
and singing songs of hope
for a better future

life is
only
as good as the memories we make
and i'm taking back what belongs to me
polaroids of classrooms unattended
these relics of remembrance
are just like shipwrecks
only theyre gone faster
than the smell after it rains

last night while everyone was sleepin
i drove through my old neighborhood
and resurrected memories from ashes

we said that we would never fit in
we were really just like them
does rebellion ever make a difference

life is
only
as good as the memories we make
and im taking back what belongs to me
polaroids of classrooms unattended
these relics of remembrance
are just like shipwrecks
only theyre gone faster
than the smell after it rains

So long astoria
i found a map to buried treasure
and even if we come home empty handed
well still have our stories
of battle scars, pirate ships and wounded hearts,
broken bones, and all the best of friendships

and when this hourglass
has filtered out
its final grain of sand
i raise my glass to the memories we had
this is my wish
this is my wish
im takin back
im takin them all back

* Alone in My Car *

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 16:15:30 GMT

Rain on my windshield
Cold air on my face
A heart that never heals
But never fails to ache

My music is on
And my mind on something else
Or so it is
I always tell myself

It’s cold
And you slip into my mind
The way you'd hold me
So warm and so nice

But I'm alone in
This freezing cold car
Alone like I have been
Like you always are

As the air touches my face
A tear forms in my eye
I wonder if I have been erased
As I begin to cry

I can barely see ahead of me
I just think of you
You never thinking of me
Me never meaning anything to you

Now I don't think
The tears just flow
In unison with the rain
Whenever I go home...

* Best Vacation Ever! *

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 16:22:30 GMT

Last week I drove to NY with Jordan and BJ to visit Heather and Nichole at RIT!
The trip was awesome, Jo and BJ rock my socks!

Things got a bit sketchy when we went to downtown Rochester, but we made it out alive and did some serious dancing haha. "Screw guy's. Lets just dance."

I got to know more about Jess and Neha they're pretty chil.

I spent mucho money at the NY Mall but it was worth it!

We went to Hooters, drank a lot of coffee, went shopping, and went flippin nuts! Thats what we do best!

Meny quotes of the trip:

"She's like the mighty mouse of satin"

"Come on guys! I don't have inssurence!"

"Ass Clown"

"Yeah, It's because I'm bad ass"

" Oh shit I just looked at a native, I'm going to get shot!"

"I sware we're not racest, well Jordan is." -BJ haha

"Chuck Noris is never late and if he is, time better slow the fuck down."

"Chuck Noris is not hung like a horse, horses are hung like Chuck Noris." BJ

I had a blast ... I have the coolest freinds EVER! Ilove you guys!

Me and BJ

Heather, Me, Jess, Neha,
BJ, Nichole, Jordan

My girl Nichole and Me!

Jo and me dancing!

Me and Heather ... I don't even know...haha.

* you're damn right *

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 17:56:18 GMT

*valentines day turned out to be awesome!

*two more days until vacation!

*seven more days until I leave for NY with Jo and BJ to see Nichole and Heather!

*Bob Marley March 3rd!

*taste of chaos march 6th!

*my brother is the coolest person ever!

*no more crazy girls on my back!

*Kina kicked ass!

*Bamboozle may 6th!!!!

Am I happy?

You're damn right!

* I hate Valentines day *

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 22:53:17 GMT

Anyone else hate it?

ahh o well..

* Grandma *

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 20:12:33 GMT

So the last time I saw my grandmother
I was 5
she was drunk
and she flipped me and my family off and said "have a nice life"

So 15 years later ...
I just wrote her a letter and I'm really nervous about her response...assuming that she'll actually write back. I'm sending her a picture of me and my brother so she can see how much we've grown.

It's so sad.

Wish me luck :(

* Great Romances Of The 20th Century *

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 17:24:19 GMT

A beautiful girl can make you dizzy
Like youve been drinking jack and coke all morning
She can make u feel high
Full a single greatest commodity known to man
Promise promise of a better day
Promise of a greater hope
Promise of a new tomorrow
This particular aura can be found in the gait of a beautilful girl
In her smile & in her soul & the way she makes every rotten little thing about life seem like its gonna be ok...

September never stays this cold
where I come from
And you know
I’m not one for complaining,
But I love the way you’d roll
excuses off the tip of your tongue
as I slowly fall apart (slowly, quietly, slowly)
fall apart

This won’t mean a thing come tomorrow
and that’s exactly how I’ll make it seem
Cause I'm still not sleeping,
thinking I’ve crawled home from worse than this

So please, please (please)
I’m running out of sympathy (I'm running out of sympathy!)
and I never said I’d take this
I never said I'd take this lying down

She says
"come on, come on, let’s just get this over with”
She says
"come on, come on, let’s just get this over with”
(I never said I’d take this lying down, let's just get this over with,
and I've crawled home from worse than this)
She says
"come on, come on, let’s just get this over with”
She says
"come on, come on.."

You always come close but this never comes easy,
I still know everything
You always come close but you never come easy,
I still know everything
This always comes close but you never come easy,
I still know everything
You always come so close...
I still know everything, I still know everything, I still know...

You always come close but this never comes easy
You always come close but you never come easy
You always come... you come in close

I never said I'd take this lying down
I never said I'd take this lying down
I never said I'd take this lying down
but I've crawled home from worse than this

If it's not keeping you up nights
then what’s the point
then what’s the point
then what’s the point
then what’s the point

I'm in your room
now is this turning you on
am I turning you on?

I'm in your room
are you turned on?

I'm on the corner of your bed,
I'm thinking maybe,
are you turned on,
are you turned on?

What's the point?

* People *

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 13:29:33 GMT

people grow,
with growth comes change,
with change comes differences,
and differences usually end up in arguements.

If want to keep going then don't give up!
If you've had enough, tell them because you'll only be hurting them more if you go on with these fake smiles.

"Just because a he/she loves you..doesn't make him/her a good boyfriend/girlfriend."

* Summer *

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 02:17:10 GMT

Winter = no fun
Summer = my girls, tans, beachin it, and late nights around the fire and under the stars! (good memories)

I cannot wait until summer! Hopefully I get to see another shooting star!

:)

* Je t'aime *

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 02:50:43 GMT

Je vous veux davantage qu'un ours veut le miel. J'ai besoin de vous davantage que les besoins d'une fleur le soleil. Je t'aime davantage que la vie d'amour de I.

* I'll be *

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 01:33:54 GMT

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful,
Stop me and steal my breath.
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth.
Tell me that we belong together,
Dress it out with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide.
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed.
You're my survival, you're my living proof.
My love is alive not dead.
Tell me that we belong together.
Dress it out with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide.
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

I've been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead.
Tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said

* Questions *

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 00:59:09 GMT

What are you saying?
What is it that you want?

Could it be lies?
Or are they unread thoughts?

Do I believe it?
What do I say?

Do I want to hear it?
Or do I want to trun away?

Is this what you really want?
Do I want the same?

Do you love me?
Is this a game?

Why do you question us?
Why do you say those hurtful things?

Why do I listen?
Why don't I speak?

When will I know?
Who will judge?

Am I naive?
Am I too young?

Why is it so hard?
have we been at it too long?

Am I for you?
Are you for me?

I guess we'll work on it and then we'll see...
where are we? who are we? what will we be?

so meny questions ...
the answers out of reach.

Messed Up

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 13:11:32 GMT

I had the most messed up dream last night. It was one of those dreams the seems so real; the sad part is I'm not sure if I wish it were real or not. They say that dreams show you an image that is kept in the back of your mind, something that you wouldn't think about awake. It really makes me think about all the decisions I've made in the past. Oh well people change with time and I have no control over that.

peace out, girl scout.

Blah

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 16:27:43 GMT

I saw the previews for the movie Tristan and Isolde and said "I have to see it!". Now I'm sot so sure I want to. It's going to be just like Romeo and Juliet, A Walk to Remember and The Notebook, it will be sweet, sad and far fetched. These movies make girls think that these things actually happen when in reality no guy would ever be clever or romantic enough to pull any of it off.

I don't really know why I'm being such a downer, but I don't like it. I'm usually optimistic but something has changed. Not quite sure what it is but it's bothering me.

I cannot wait for summer... hot sun, beach, tans = fun times!

Vacation

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 14:24:02 GMT

I hope everyone had a great Christmas!

This vacation:

*got some kick butt gifts
*made 500 dollars in one week
*got to hang with my girls
*spent time with the one I love <3
*met some more kick butt people
*got together with some old friends
*came across no drama!

It's been a wonderful vacation and I don't go back until the 17th so hit me up!

* Count Down *

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 14:19:04 GMT

One day and one final left! YeaeY!

I can't wait to go home and see my girls, my bro, and of course my doggy!

I love Christmas time, everyone so happy and I get to bake yummy things with my mom and watch christmas movies! I'm getting excited just thinking about it!

I hope that everyone has a good break! BEST WISHES AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

Love, Cais

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 19:45:08 GMT

I am myself, no one else.

I'm not her and I am nothing like you.

I am nothing like you and every night I rest in peace knowing that; because if i were anything like you I would shoot myself just to spare the people around me.